does anyone really care about you as much as you think?

We usually spend a lot of time worrying about what people think about us. But does actually anyone care so much about what we do as we think? 

Maybe when you try to do things you like or copy someone, they will get angry at you. But isn't the love between you and other people more important than the fact that you annoy them? 

Is it possible to love someone that annoys you at the same time? 

I don't have the amswers but sometimes I think the love betweem people is more important than these petty contlicts. 

We will all die one day. We shouldn't feel like someone is stopping us from living the best version of our life. The memories won't stay, in fact nothing in this world is permanent. We need to always keep this in mind. 

My friend recently died from cancer. The photos in the church of his smiling face touched my heart deeply.  I still can see how his white coffin is descending into the ground. 

I also remember shaking his hand, laughing and smiling. Cracking jokes together or having a beer in the field or on a hill overlooking the city. 

Now his life has ended and we are living on. What will we do in this live? Can we radiate love from our eyes towards people that sometimes hurt us or annoy us? Can we allow ourselves to sometimes being annoying? And still love and be loved?