some thoughts on thoughts

Controling the thoughts means to add one more thought saying BAD! after you thought something bad. It doesn't do much more than tell you, you shouldn't thibk these things which you probably already know as it was you who told himself to not think those things. 

Much more important than controling the thoughts, which we can't really do anyway is observing our reactions to them. 

One might think about thoughts as writing a message to someone on messenger and the feelings and reactions as clicking send.

Even the self is a thought. Feeling like the thought called Me, or rather a complex of thoughts, a habit made tangled up set of characteristics that is percieved as the thinking self is the boss in the house is a common thing. 

However there are no proofs for it being so. 

Even when we reach a state where it seems the observed world around us is clear of any mental imagery or judgements we still think to ourself: oh, now I am seeing clearly, now I am not judging the reality based on past or thinking, now I am just directly observing the present moment. 

It is better to give up hope of becoming happy and powerful through surrendering to the bear presence. 

We cannot control what will be our next thought, neither can we choose to be only good from now. If we could everyone would do that long time ago.

But there is still one thing we can do, we can choose to feel for our body, we can start to see the world with it's information as the waves of an ocean washing up on the shore called brain and thoughts and feelings being the little stones and crabs that stay stuck in the sand with the waves coming in and back. 

We can't control what we think but we can choose what kind of information we consume. These information create our thoughts, thoughts create our speech and our speech creates our actions. 

However weak we are there are still proofs that brains of people that meditate are different from the ones that don't. A lot of meditations are based on realising that thoughts don't help us get outside of the trouble we feel. Lot of meditations are showing the realation between thought and feeling and the constant flow and impermanence of both. We can always turn our attention to breath and sensing wherever we are. Our thoughts can help us remember to do it.

Ultimately the thoughts and feelings and pain are messengers of the bodys wishes. They tell us what it deems important and that is based on our prior knowledge and experiences. We cannot change our thoughts by thinking but we can change our habits and the things we put daily into our minds as nourishment. We can try and help others and that way our heart gradually opens and builds trust that was once broken. Ultimately it doesn't matter as much what place your body is at as what place your mind is at. It is the place from where you keep stepping out into the future and always catching it as the present now. It is the only place to be happy and grateful as no wonderful goal can justify feeling unhappy and negative in the present moment while trying to reach it. 

My mind is sad, jealous, violent, envious, fearful... the list goes on. After these thoughts another follows. I shouldn't be jealous, envious, sad or violent. These are called no-violence, no-fear, no-envy, no-jealousy. But do these actually exist or are they just mind created opposites of these "energy directions" of sadness, fear, envy and so on? Man sees opposites in physical world and so he created and anticipated them in the mental world too but these are not actually existent as love nor hate nor fear has any opposite. This too was a part of Krishnamurtis thought. We must always deal with what is. We cannot fight these feelings nor should we project ourselves into a bright future where we are no longer ugly and selfish and life is disatisfying. Observing as it is is our only freedom.