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I was very obssesed by the idea of spending all my time in some kind of chosen surroundings to become someone else to change but I realised I never become someone else. In fact even when the things in my brain change  I still feel like I didn't become that because I can't become anything. I will always be just observing what I became.

Are we ready to denounce everything?

 If I see the people around me as if I have never seen them before, if I really believe that by forgetting my past the brain heals, if I really really really stick to it and put my energy into getting rid of the thoughts and images in my mind, will the world around me change too? Or will it just follow the same rules based on our past selves as it always did? Not answering this question, and going for this anyway, in every moment anew, in every moment as if for the first time was the radicalism of Krishnamurti. 

Samarpan once said: I like to feel anger, it is tremendous energy, I accept feeling anxiety and fear. It is just the mind again saying: "no, we have to feel happy all the time!" Every emotion that comes to you is not just now but all the times you felt it before. When someone hurts you, it is not him that hurt you, it is the trigger that opens up all the hurt you ever had and it comes to you again for you to observe it, to calmly feel it, accept it and let it go. 

Tell it: "thank you you have served me the best way you could in those times, now you may go."

I start to see this life as a mere short stop on my way, as a brief visit to planet earth and human body. I know I'm a consciousnes in the human body seeing this all, meeting other consciousnes incarnated into other bodies and yet knowing we are all one consciousnes. Every deed of love becomes meaningful, it reminds us who we really are. This "Way" is much longer than one life and yet it doesn't take any time. Krishnamurti always told us to forget time and becoming. Don't try this in order to become better!